What the Hell Is This? | Six-Week Paired Inquiry

Still looking?

If you are still looking, something has not landed

Maybe you have listened to teachers for years, read the books, sat retreats, had powerful experiences, understood ideas that once seemed impossible.

And still the search continues.

You still want to know what is true.

You still want to know what this is.

You still want something that does not disappear when the experience passes or the teaching ends.

That is where this workshop starts.

Not with another answer, but with the possibility of finding out for yourself.

Because if the truth is here at all, it has to be here now.

And it has to be possible to find out.

The problem

You may already know all the non-dual answers

No self. No separation. Only this. Awareness. Presence. Oneness.

You may understand all of that.

But ordinary life can still look exactly as it always did.

You are here. The world is out there. Other people are over there. Yesterday happened. Tomorrow is coming. Things continue when you are not looking.

It all feels obvious.

So obvious that it does not even look like an assumption.

It just looks like reality.

What if the thing keeping the search alive is not a lack of teaching, but the world you are still taking for granted?

The invitation

Find out for yourself

What the Hell Is This? is for people who have had enough of being told what is true.

You may already know what non-duality says. You may know what the great traditions say. You may know what your favourite teacher says.

But none of that can answer the question for you.

What is actually true here?

Is there really a world outside experience? Is there actually someone here experiencing it? Where is the past? Where is the future? What is another person? What is a thing before the name seems to settle it?

These are not questions you have to answer correctly.

You look.

And you keep looking until an answer is no longer enough simply because it sounds convincing.

What the hell is this?

What is at stake

This is not a small question

Almost everything you care about depends upon things being what you think they are.

Yourself. Other people. Your history. What you have lost. What you hope will happen. What you are afraid of. What you think you still need to find.

All of it appears within a world that seems already known.

So what happens when you stop taking that knowing for granted and actually look?

It is astonishingly full. Completely immediate. Completely alive. And nothing you can say about it finally closes the question.

This is not something you need to believe.

It is here to be examined.

The workshop

A glimpse is not enough

You can see something clearly for a moment and still find yourself back inside the same unquestioned reality a few hours later.

So we keep looking.

For six weeks the inquiry returns in different ways, in the middle of ordinary life, where the world again seems completely obvious.

The point is not to preserve an insight.

It is to become able to examine what seems true, right when it seems most unquestionably true.

The paired inquiry

Another person helps keep you looking

It is extraordinarily easy to answer a question instead of examining it.

You remember something a teacher said. You reach for an insight you had before. You produce something intelligent. You explain.

A partner can hear when that happens.

They are not there to teach you, interpret you or tell you what you should discover.

They return you to the question.

What is actually here?

Then you look again.

How it works

The basic structure

A new part each Monday

The workshop runs through six weekly releases.

Audio and written material

Each week includes an audio orientation, written material and a precise inquiry.

Your own looking

You carry the inquiry with you during the week and work with it directly in ordinary life.

Paired inquiry

You arrange a session directly with your partner at a time that works for both of you.

Email support

You can email me during the six weeks with questions arising directly from the work.

Yours to keep

The audio and written material are downloadable and remain yours afterwards.

Your partner

Come with someone or find someone here

You do not need to have a partner before registering.

If you already know someone who wants to do the workshop with you, you are welcome to work together.

If not, you will receive access to a private participant directory before the course begins so you can contact other participants directly.

I do not assign partners.

If you cannot find a suitable partner before the course begins, your payment will be refunded in full.

A group of three can also work where necessary.

Who it is for

If the question is still alive, you can start here

You do not need previous experience.

You may be completely new to non-duality.

You may have spent years with meditation, retreats, Dzogchen, Advaita, contemporary non-duality or Peter Brown’s work.

Either way, nobody gets to bring an answer that settles the inquiry.

What matters is that you genuinely want to find out and that you are willing to look.

First intake

19 October – 29 November 2026

Length: Six weeks
Release day: Monday
First release: 19 October 2026
Final week: 23–29 November 2026
Course fee: €180. VAT added in the EU where required.
Places: Limited places
Concessions: A limited number are available on request

Completing the form requests a place. I will email you with payment details and confirm your place once payment has been received.

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Practical questions

Before you register

Do I need previous experience?

No. You can come completely new to this or after previous work with me. What matters is your willingness to look and take part properly.

Do I need to bring a partner?

No. You can register with someone you already know or use the private participant directory before the course begins. A group of three can also work where necessary. If you cannot find a suitable partner before the course begins, your payment will be refunded in full.

Are there live group meetings?

No. The workshop is delivered through six weekly releases, paired inquiry and email support.

How is this different from This Radiant Space?

This Radiant Space is a broader live exploration. What the Hell Is This? stays much more tightly with one question and places most of the weight on your own inquiry and the work you do with your partner. There are no live group meetings.

How much time should I allow?

Enough time each week to listen to the audio, read the material, meet your partner and continue with the inquiry during ordinary life. The paired meeting is only part of the work.

Do I keep the material?

Yes. The audio and PDFs are downloadable and remain yours after the workshop ends.

What is the refund policy?

Course payments are normally non-refundable. If you do not already have a partner and cannot find a suitable one before the course begins, your payment will be refunded in full. A place may also be transferred once to a later intake if the request is made before Part One is released.

What does email support include?

You can email me about questions that arise directly from the workshop and the inquiry during the six weeks. A limited number of separate 45-minute sessions are also available for €90, plus VAT where applicable in the EU, if something needs more sustained attention.

What the hell is this?

Find out for yourself

You can spend another year hearing what is true.

Or you can look.

If the question is still alive for you, come and give it six weeks.

The first intake begins on 19 October 2026.

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Future intakes

Further courses in 2027

Further intakes are planned for 2027. Dates will be announced after the first course has run.